So much money

The Today show is doing a special on a new fad called the Babymoon. It's amazing how many people have the means to spend so much money right before one of the biggest changes in a lifestyle. I'm not going to be able to support a child for 15 years unless I marry someone with a very good job and stable finances. I don't want to bring any children into the world unless I can really take care of them. I would also like for all this talk of children to be gone from me. My fear of the possibility of children is entirely my fault but even though I'm 99% sure it's not possible, all the talk surrounding me is freaking me out. Such a dilemma I'd rather not have right now.

However, the Today show did show that belly casts are a popular thing to do and I think that's cool. I want to be one of those women who have a great pregnant body but I don't think I'll be that lucky. I'll be a "put on weight" type so the plaster mold idea won't be as appealing when I'm hugely pregnant!

Anyways. Enough about that nonsense.

I am so sick of the campaigning that is going on recently. I hate how ugly it has become. Rather than talking about what a candidate will do if elected, they are focusing on what their opponent lacks. What's sad is that those commercials and phone calls always say that they are paid for by a certain group which leads us to believe that maybe the candidate doesn't endorse this slander, but they still took money from this group. It's sad, really. It shouldn't be like this. And what will it take to change that?

Not forgotten

I've thought about posting for a while, but realize that I have no one to show this too. But why do I want to have an anonymous blog and write about my life and relationships to people who don't even know me. Sure, I could tell stories about things no one knows and most likely would never find out about. But why? I don't even write some of the shit I do down so that I don't have proof that I actually did it in case I ever forget. Maybe I need to realize that it doesn't matter what I write and if I'm going to do something in my life, maybe I shouldn't worry about what people will think about what I do or say or think.

This is my space. I should remember that.